zachlilley:

why develop feelings for people when you can just walk into traffic and achieve the same results

My version of flirting is looking at someone I find attractive multiple times and hoping they’re more brave than I am.

(Source: deadp0ol)

I’m scared to go into this full-on because I don’t want to end up getting hurt like last time. I wish there was some way you could just find out how people felt about you before you got too tangled up in it all.

Sometimes I wonder if my parents’ divorce affects me more than I think it does. I have never cared about not living with my dad or wished for my parents to get back together, and I know a lot of kids do. But I take the view that you can’t miss what you’ve never had. 

It’s weird though, because whenever we talk about my dad at home (not just bring him up but have a proper conversation about him walking out etc. etc.) I always get a lump in my throat like I’m about to cry and I really don’t know why because I don’t feel like it upsets me. Or maybe it does and I don’t want to admit it to myself. The thing that upsets me most about it is the way my mum has told me that my dad treated her. And the fact that when he left I was only two years old and therefore incapable of getting my mum through such a tough time in her life. Having your husband walk out on you must be the hardest thing ever to get through and if it had happened now I would have been able to support her through it but I couldn’t at the time and I feel really guilty for that.

I also think it’s so unfair because no one can predict it: come on, when you’re thinking about being an adult and you think about your husband/wife and family, you don’t ever think to yourself, “And I could be a single parent when my partner walks out.” No one does, you just assume that everything is going to work out. And more often than not these days, it doesn’t work out. But why is it that my mum should have had to go through so much shit when she didn’t even deserve it? She never predicted that she was going to be a single parent and look at her now. 

OK this is getting really lame but I was just confused as to why I feel upset and I’m crying now and getting rapidly lamer OK iuehfuhaeunvtgmhe bye